As if things haven’t been stressful enough lately….this happened! I’ve had a postpartum period and then I started birth control. Well it ended up last time we were in the hospital for Eva’s acid reflux, I forgot my pills at home and missed 4 days. So instead of doubling up, I just stopped all together. I fully intended on calling in for more birth control but I just kept thinking that my insurance would say it’s too soon to cover it and well, I don’t ever have a regular cycle any way. Chances of me getting pregnant without meds is next to impossible so who cares. DUMB. DUMB. DUMB. I fully admit that. So I had a bad UTI right before we went into the hospital this past time, a majorly stuffy nose, and my oobs hurt. Alllll the same stuff as last time. I’m thinking it’s all a coincidence but need to just be sure since I’ve been on a lot of medicine lately for this virus/cold thing or whatever you wanna call it annnnd I wanna start a new pack of birth control pills so I need to test before. Plus, when I went to the dr on Monday for my z pack she asked when the last time I had a period was. I told her I couldn’t remember and she suggested I test.
Ok ok. I gave away allll of my leftover tests to a friend after we found out so I needed to buy more. On the way home last night I stop at Dollar General. I walk all over the damn store and finally find the spot where they’re suppoooosed to be and it says “please see front for pregnancy test.” Really? I MEAN REALLY?!?! We live in a small town and these people saw me a bunch when I was pregnant and would always ask how Eva is doing now. I don’t know why, but I felt embarrassed to have to ask because I knew they were going to look at me like ALREADY?!?! I walk up to the front and see the stupid tests behind the counter. I’m annoyed at this point and borderline enraged that I even have to ask. My choices were slim. Four different kinds…three were blue dye tests. ::Face palm:: Those things get more false positives than any test out there. NOT going with those! So I only had ONE choice. The cheap $1 pink dye test. Fine, fine. I don’t trust these that much but it’s a dollar so what do I have to lose.
I get home and sneak to the bathroom. Richie and I had recently talked about how I should probably check but I didn’t want to freak him out because I knew it was going to be negative. I peed then waited like 3 minutes because I really wanted to see Eva. No line. WINNING! Picture below. Thank you, lawds. I don’t want to have another one for at least 4 years. I want to be able to enjoy Eva!
So then this morning I wake up, take a shower, blah blah blah. I went to grab something out of the cabinet that I left the test in and all of a sudden I SEE A MOTHER F N LINE!!!!!!!!! ::rubs eyes:: W.T.F. that wasn’t there last night and when I have any kind of negative test there is NEVER A LINE EVARGHHHH! It wasn’t just a grey line either like an evap…there was pink! ::faints:: ::gets back up:: ::faints:: WHY DID I ONLY BUY ONE CRAPPY TEST?!?! So I take a part the test, as if this is going to make the line go away or something. WRONG! It makes me see it even more. ::hold me:: This just can’t be right. I shouldn’t even worry because this was like 10 hours after the negative. But to be safe, I needed to buy a first response.
I stop at Walgreens on the way to work and pick up a 3 pack. No way am I leaving with just one in case I need to re-check this crap again. The whole ride to work I’m thinking all kinds of stuff…No way do I want another one right now because I want to love on my baby..and just one baby at a time! Richie would shit his pants. We can’t afford it. Daycare is expensive. How would I even do 2 car seats at once? I can’t carry a baby with a big belly. I just lost all of my dang baby weight. This crap better be negative. And it went one and on and onnn. Got to work and went straight to the bathroom. Dammit!! Someone is in here! They’re gonna hear me go in the cup! I flushed the toilet a few times so the lady couldn’t hear lol. I set the stop watch on my phone and then I waited…. PLEASE DON’T SHOW THAT D LINE! ::squeezes eyes shut:: ::creeps open one eye:: No line so far….woop woop! Five minutes is up AND PARRRRTAYYYYY!!! Such relief! Negative BOOM!
I sent Richie a text after the fact. I think he shit his pants anyway lol. I’m getting my birth control on the way home tonight. Rawwwwr!